Dear high school self:
I just want to start off by saying: you're an amazing person! You are caring, sweet, and pleasantly hard headed. Im not saying at close to the age of 21 you have changed too much, your the same person just much wiser to the world. Even though you are eager to move out, move on, and live your life... cherish those small moments that high school brings to you. This year was particularly tough, but this year is going to teach you more about life that you wish to know at the moment... but as you grow and learn about life you will be thankful for those tough trials. I'm not writing this to warn you, or to even change the past! I'm writing to tell you to stop and enjoy life, and to learn to love every detail about it. Stop over stressing about the small things and learn to breathe and go with the flow... trust me you will thank yourself later! Don't change a thing about yourself for ANYONE. It takes a while, but you will soon realize that you are perfect the way you are.
Yes, a month shy of being 21 you are still a HUGE GOOFBALL. You still would rather take a silly picture rather than a serious one. Not much has changed about your personality either. You would still rather your hair up in a bun than to have to straighten it 24/7, and your go to outfit is always something comfortable and easy. No worries, Caylan and Jody are still in your life... you really think they're done ragging on you yet? Nope, they'll probably be around for life. Did you think you would ever have friends from all across the US, you can thanks SPEAKs, SADD, SAB, and college for that! I know you are worried that life after high school is going to be overwhelming. But realize even though you got denied that scholarship from Southern Miss, you will end up there... just takes you a year to get there. Don't rush away the moments you have. You will get to Southern Miss but you still have to take a few more steps to get there. What you can't see is the beauty of your life at this time! 
Life would be SO different for you now, in the present, if you had gone straight to USM. You wouldn't have met majority of your friends at USM through the transfer student welcome week group or your best friend from Holmes CC. You probably never would have joined a sorority, or even been able to work for the student advisory board for freshman and sophomore year of college. Carrie Underwood says it best, "Its easy to get lost inside your problems that seem so big at the time. It's like a river that is so wide, it swallows you whole. While you sitting around, thinking about what you can't change and worrying about ALL of the wrong things. Time is flying by, better make it count because you can't get it back." Quit focusing on the negative of the situation. I promise you will learn to love life, takes you trial and error to get there.
Lastly, you've over come so much at just sixteen. Take the time to BE A KID. One day you're going to look back and wish you wouldn't have stressed about a part-time job at Justice so much! I have to say your future gets better every day... new opportunities come your way and you a huge asset to a lot of people. I'll give you a short glimpse into your future... just a sneak peak though.
With MUCH Love,
Your 20 year old self
PS: Change you're major six times.. you'll love where it ends up! ;)
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