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Unless someone like you cares a whole awful lot... Nothing is going to get better. Its not. - Dr Seuss's LoraxI began thinking about my life, the things I am involved in, and mostly how my life has changed over the last few months. No not changed like I'm getting married (SHOUT OUT to Heather and Caylan though.... Can't wait for both of your weddings :D), but it has taken some very interesting and impactful twists and turns.
Since my last post in July, a LOT has happened.
[2012 was apparently a year of change for this chick.]
- For starters, I finished my most painful and dreadful class of my college career... COLLEGE ALGEBRA! I had prolonged my pain until the summer before my junior year of college... that tells you how MUCH I despise math.
- I moved into my FIRST apartment!
- With the help of Dr. Jennifer Ducksworth and Ms. Toni Anderson - who gave me the swift kicks in the butt I needed- I can say now that I am in the clear academically, and now have a better outlook on many things. (explanation later I promise)
- I came to realize HOW important my family and friends are to my survival. Without them I couldn't make it through this beautiful mess of a life.
My goal after SADD Nationals was to keep up this blog post about the fun little quirky events in my life. BUT... School happened and I had to keep up a blog for another class, so this had to take a seat on the back burner for a while. So now we play catch up!
In August, like I mentioned I moved into my first apartment. Its been fun so far, my roommates and I have had our share of differences and have had of hair pulling out but through all the events in apt 821- we are like a little family. AND NOW WE HAVE KITTENS (yeah idk how long this will actually last!) When I started the semester I decided to go through 'rush'. It was fun, I got to see what sorority life was really about. There are some amazing women in every chapter at The University of Southern Mississippi, I was not chosen to be apart of one... Yes a little crushed I came to realize what was most important at that moment.... my degree. I needed to breakaway and really focus. Which I did! Thanks to Dr. Ducksworth and Mrs. Anderson.
Something I love about my university is our advisors, professors, and program directors truly care (well in the ELEM ED/SPECIAL ED dept) about the success of us as students. Ms. Anderson pushed me to answer the TOUGHEST questions of my life. Did I actually WANT to be a teacher? IS USM the school for me? Should I just quit and work? But most of all... What did I, EMILY BOOTH, want for MYSELF.
I never really ever answered these questions, what did I want? After not talking about any of this (which is what I do when I am uneasy/questioning things) for a few weeks, I broke down and called my mom. She listened as I had my bi-yearly melt down (my fellow blogger HBAE talked me through all of them last year... but she was in class!) and contemplated quitting school, transferring to another university, changing my major, moving home and finding someone to sub-lease my apartment... I went on and on about the options and my mom, in her typical fashion, told me to calm down and just breathe "Life is bumpy if it wasn't difficult it wouldn't be worth enjoying. You'll get there and stumble across the right decision but I am always here to listen!" I love my mom just like that I felt instantly better and knew I would figure it out. 24 hours later I was in advisement talking with Dr. Manning about the following semester, confident in my decisions in classes and excited I get a call from my mom. This had to be one of the most terrifying phone calls of my life... My step-dad was rushed into emergency surgery to have a STENT put in his heart. While this sounds routine and normal... He is only 43 years old and not to mention his father died of a young-ish age from a massive heart-attack.
How I made it from campus to my apartment is still a blur, I walked in and saw my roommate Joanna and broke down... we packed my bags and I made it to Jackson in 45 minutes flat. In that drive back I realized how important my friends, family, and life were. I was conveniently slapped in the face with all the answers to my questions I had been pondering for over a month.
In short, I realized that there are bigger things in life than the small set-backs. I was having to retake courses and was pushed back a semester graduating. In retrospect it was not that huge of a deal. Ms. Anderson did more than just make me answer the "tough" questions. She helped me to realize my potentials as a student, which has done more for me than anything else. She made me realize that while IN THIS MOMENT things were tough... it is the moments, seconds, and days after the fact that are affected by what you decided to do. What on GODs green earth does that mean? Your
situation(s) do not define who you are, or who you are yet to become. There comes a point in your life when you
realize that what you want or want to become takes putting every hurt, transgressions, and even mistakes behind you. As hard as that may be, if you don’t you will let the
situation win and take control over your life, and have accomplished nothing...
I know this is a little deeper than I normally write but like I said 2012 did a number on my life. 2013 so far has taught me that it's time to grow up and do the tough things that I don't want to do... LIKE go to work on NYE, but hey the bills have to get paid!
Until next time...
Emily
PS: These online classes are turning me into a night owl... 2013 may turn into a year's worth of blogging... Im about to go twitter on y'all #OhGoodLawwd
In August, like I mentioned I moved into my first apartment. Its been fun so far, my roommates and I have had our share of differences and have had of hair pulling out but through all the events in apt 821- we are like a little family. AND NOW WE HAVE KITTENS (yeah idk how long this will actually last!) When I started the semester I decided to go through 'rush'. It was fun, I got to see what sorority life was really about. There are some amazing women in every chapter at The University of Southern Mississippi, I was not chosen to be apart of one... Yes a little crushed I came to realize what was most important at that moment.... my degree. I needed to breakaway and really focus. Which I did! Thanks to Dr. Ducksworth and Mrs. Anderson.
Something I love about my university is our advisors, professors, and program directors truly care (well in the ELEM ED/SPECIAL ED dept) about the success of us as students. Ms. Anderson pushed me to answer the TOUGHEST questions of my life. Did I actually WANT to be a teacher? IS USM the school for me? Should I just quit and work? But most of all... What did I, EMILY BOOTH, want for MYSELF.
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| HBAE- the blogging queen- |
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| Joanna (the roommate) |
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| Michelle, Angela, Me, Joanna. |
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| work on NYE.. boo |
I know this is a little deeper than I normally write but like I said 2012 did a number on my life. 2013 so far has taught me that it's time to grow up and do the tough things that I don't want to do... LIKE go to work on NYE, but hey the bills have to get paid!
Until next time...
Emily
